i need to CALM DOWN.

damn it (

i regret a LOT of things that i've done. there are so many mean things, so many mistakes. and i had the chance to not do them.

im disappointed in myself. im so laaaaaaaaaame.

i feel so useless.

im always thinking "what if--?"

sayang talaga. ang daming mga bahay na di ko dapat ginawa, sinabi. ang dami kong hindi ginawa, sinabi.

too many regrets

you're so SELFISH.

i really think so.

you dont think about what other's feel. you only think that you should be pitied. you should be prioritized. you should be special.

well, i've got two words for you.

YOU'RE WRONG.

i may not be the best person around, but if im all you've got dont hesitate.

i may be showing this strong facade, but deep inside im crumbling.

i may not seem to be an easily-influenced person, but in all honesty i care what others are saying and i get too conscious about it.

i may not be your best friend, but i assure you we ARE friends.

i may act all high and mighty, but actually i have an inferiority complex.

i may be plastic, but im only being human.

i may not want to answer your questions, but it's because i dont know the answers completely myself.

i may seem to always know what i am doing, but really, im confused about how the world turns, even as much as you do.

i may try to befriend others, but i always feel alone. [doesnt make sense, huh?]

i may suck at things, but at least i do try.

i may be a bad actress, but at least some people appreciate the fact that i tried to save their asses.

i may be stuck with you, but i dont know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

im scared of all the possibilities that may or may not happen. im scared of the future. i want to be strong. i NEED to be strong. for in this world we live in the strong shall live and the weak shall die.

i dont wanna die. i cant let myself die. neither will i die for you.

but im willing to live to protect and be with you.

&3&

oha. some are facts. some are fiction. guess nyo na lang

clue: mas marami yung facts ;]

if you've seen my past article sorry na talaga.

okay lang sakin kahit mabasa mo.

o diba? mas nagiging OPEN na ako =)

&3&

im happy. like, real happy. got to see my friends yesterday.

kahit nabarya ng tig-50 yung napakalutong kong sanlibo.

worth it naman.

napasaya ko naman din ang b2d sa large fries & 3 sachets ng ketchup.

ahahahahahaha.

&3&

moved ang swimming.

dahil pyesta kanila em-em sa tuesday

monday na ang swimming yey!

a day earlier!

&3&

hectic ang sked this week.

saturday[tomorrow na pala to] - 9am - practice with choir sa chapel

sunday - mass. tugtog ako fiesta sa pulo. our family could care less. mother's day. we're going out. nuod daw hopefully ng iron maaaaaaaaan :D

monday - swimming ng b2d

tuesday - fiesta kanila heng-heng. punta ng primavera!

wednesday - death anniv ni lolo pedro. parade ng kalabaws. offer sa 5.30pm mass sa san isidro.

thursday - fiesta sa pulilan. house blessing dun

friday - practice choir again :|

&3&

okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. needa hurry. early pa ako tomorrow